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\u00c4ntligen har Alva f\u00e5tt ur sig sina tankar efter en krossad dr\u00f6m, dr\u00f6mmen att kunna ha h\u00e4st p\u00e5 landet, \u00e5tminstone n\u00e5gon sommar. Mina tankar l\u00e4mpar sig inte i skrift \u00e4nnu. Jag anade hur j\u00e4kla starkt psyke hon tvingats f\u00e5, men det hon visade under tv\u00e5 dagar i maj allts\u00e5… ?<\/p>\n

Upp som en sol, ner som en pannkaka, eller hur var det… nu \u00e4r jag \u00e5terigen h\u00e4stl\u00f6s, men denna g\u00e5ng k\u00e4nns det som f\u00f6r gott. ?<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Tyv\u00e4rr var det inte mitt val att sluta, utan jag blev utkastad ur nya stallet p\u00e5grund av min sjukdom. Eller r\u00e4ttare sagt, f\u00f6rdomar p\u00e5grund av att jag \u00e4r kroniskt sjuk. ALLA som k\u00e4nner mig vet att jag k\u00e4mpar 1000 g\u00e5nger mer \u00e4n en frisk, f\u00f6r jag v\u00e4grar l\u00e5ta SLE vinna \u00f6ver mig. Jag har haft h\u00e4st sedan jag blev sjuk, eftersom det har varit min b\u00e4sta medicin.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Denna stall\u00e4gare, v\u00e4grade ta till sig fakta, erfarenhet fr\u00e5n mig, hon kom med fruktansv\u00e4rda kommentarer som \u00e4rrat mig f\u00f6r alltid. Hon kunde inte lita p\u00e5 mig sa hon, och jag fr\u00e5gade om jag gjort n\u00e5got fel, och det hade jag ju inte. Men det kunde ju bli…<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Jag fick telefonsamtalet d\u00e4r hon gallskrek i \u00f6rat att jag skulle ut, dagen efter jag blivit avsl\u00e4ngd med hj\u00e4rnskakning, ont i ryggen och mitt bens\u00e5r (som \u00e4nnu inte l\u00e4kt). Tiden jag fick p\u00e5 mig var 2 dagar.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Panikslaget letade jag stallplats, bete eller vad som helst. Ingen hade plats, betet b\u00f6rjade om 2 veckor s\u00e5 det fanns inget. Till slut efter att halvt gett upp s\u00e5 kom v\u00e4rldens b\u00e4sta uppf\u00f6dare Annika till r\u00e4ddningen p\u00e5 s\u00f6ndag kv\u00e4ll. Hon erbj\u00f6d plats med kompis hemma hos sig, och hon har tagit hand om Arthur nu sedan dess.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Mitt psyke har varit s\u00e5 k\u00f6rt i botten sedan detta, jag anklagar mig sj\u00e4lv och undrar vad jag kunde gjort annorlunda varje dag. Varf\u00f6r jag ber\u00e4ttade om sjukdomen? Varf\u00f6r jag bytte pass den d\u00e4r dagen? Varf\u00f6r jag ens skaffade h\u00e4st igen? Och mycket mer.. men sanningen \u00e4r att det finns INGET jag kunde gjort annorlunda. Jag m\u00e5ste f\u00f6rl\u00e5ta mig sj\u00e4lv, f\u00f6r jag har gjort mitt b\u00e4sta, som jag ALLTID g\u00f6r.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Ig\u00e5r kv\u00e4ll skrevs papprena p\u00e5 Arthur \u00f6ver till en j\u00e4ttegullig tjej som ska ha kvar honom hos Annika, och ta hand om honom som den prins han \u00e4r.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Det k\u00e4nns verkligen som att mitt st\u00f6rsta intresse \u00e4r utsuget ur mig, nerhackat i en miljon bitar, krossat f\u00f6r all framtid. Jag \u00e4r fruktansv\u00e4rt r\u00e4dd att det f\u00f6ralltid \u00e4r f\u00f6rlorat. En del av mig \u00e4r helt enkelt borta.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Och samtidigt, h\u00e4r p\u00e5 platsen jag trivs allra mest i stugan, s\u00e5 p\u00e5minns jag \u00e5terigen varje dag om det v\u00e4rsta som h\u00e4nt i mitt liv n\u00e4r hon rider f\u00f6rbi, n\u00e4r jag k\u00f6r till eller fr\u00e5n stugan, hela tiden. (Och bajset l\u00e4mnar de efter sig med ?)<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Tack sn\u00e4lla mamma och pappa som nitiskt skurade boxen, mockade hagen och k\u00f6rde iv\u00e4g alla grejer p\u00e5 n\u00e5gra enstaka timmar. Och alla ni som st\u00f6ttat mig genom detta. Det har varit en av de tuffaste m\u00e5naderna i mitt liv med alla skuldk\u00e4nslor, S\u00c5 knapert med pengar pga att jag la hela min m\u00e5nadsinkomst p\u00e5 detta stall f\u00f6r det var min h\u00f6gsta \u00f6nskan, pusslande med allt.. som gr\u00e4dden p\u00e5 moset blev jag ju inlagd en vecka med efter 4 dagars akutbes\u00f6k. Och sj\u00e4lvklart en p-bot p\u00e5 800kr bara f\u00f6r att…<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

V\u00e4lkommen Juli, nu k\u00f6r vi. Sn\u00e4lla var sn\u00e4ll mot mig \u2763\ufe0f<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

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